Leavin for a yearly trip

..its our tradition from our ug college days that we go on for a yearly trip..this time we are goin for a longer trip..somewhere near coimbatore ...reach the place then decide what shld be done on that..will post pics[hello not workin with new blogger..nor picassa supports OS that why i am not able to post pics].

will see you then..
veerabahu

On controlled aggression!

[for some reason i feel this is new years eve!..nowhere near sleepin..just had dinner it gonna be 12 am..stupid me no rules!..speakers on loud ir'ish music-rough guide to ireland folk-neighbours go to hell!hahah..good night]
[can i get back to serious topic-funpart of me stop here!]

Aggression is on the entity that gives sucha immense strength to acheive..the initial problem is the manifestation of the superior energy,then comes controllin and then channellin the energy.
Controlled aggression is like awesome..gives a never say die attitude!u ponder is there anythin impossible!these qualites have to be brought into the mind..surely nt into heart!.
That person has to be matured mentally..u can see showoff where they end unable to control and channel their energy[oh beautiful violin peice played in the song].

I shld say aggression is always necessary..but a blend of soft'st&tender heart and powerful&enlightment mind will bring victory...victory what?-better human! enravel destiny..reach thy destiny!

[i am thinkin whelther to sleep or listen-music or study]

..i must say when the whole world is sleepin i am active...enjoyin..happy..i am leavin to coimbatore and nearby places tomw from 23 to 26..with my friends for a tour after a longtime!..will talk to you after that!..see you..

veerabahu[no good night yet!]

Couplea days has been kinda useful..

..I must say that i got a great ebook-Numerical recipes for computation in C..another set of books ..these wld help solve certain kinda probs technically...

..I am als glad to tell that things are set right with me and George sir,only Dr.kalam sir's phd student..it was quite a surpise and i was very happy to meet him and sum my events in the six months..we did talk on the technical front too..

As of now i am happy the way my violin is soundin!..i am just a two year old student..i am glad to hear my violin ..just recorded my composition..

Losing my friend....

Arrow
From 15-9-2006 To 12-12-2006

She is one of my best friends i ever had..i found this baby cat when two dogs tried to bite her off.I was drivin past you never know somethin tells u to look at a direction..that how i found her.. she was strugglin..chased the dogs away.Lifted this kid carried her home.From tat day she came became very close my heart and all others ,even my neighbours.
Considering the fact that i was strugglin so much in my life.I could just talk everythin to her..she will listen!..sometimes u forget everythin and start playin with this kid.I went to Bosh interview which i didnt clear ,the day before i found arrow.After three months,I went to Alstom interview 12 th dec to banglore...i started from home...she came out of the house with my parents..in between mom and dad she stood..as though to tell 'all the best'..i still remember her eyes lookin at me..i generally look at my mom when i go out..this time..i was lookin at arrows arrow alone..smiled at her..as kid she will whisper somethin and give a kind look...i never knew that was my last time i saw her..
..i returned home after a day and then slept off..the home was doubtfully dull i didnt realise ..then asked mom what happend..she told me arrow was lost..i said we will search for her..i started..then knew that...she fell into a pool of water or somebody drowned her to death..she was found dead in dustbin..i cldnt even see her body..she is buried in our garden near coconut tree...
I wanna say to u 'arrow' that i will always love you..

veerabahu

All of sudden everything happenin!

..oh!..interview suddenly looks like oasis!..my project proposal is almost thru..i will be very glad if does..and it must be rightly funded too..hope so..i cant sit and wait..i am moving..workin ..on something..and learnin too..

Long time no c!!!!!

Oh!its been sucha a longtime two months nearly since i have seen you..I was searchin and searchin nothin really did turn up! :)..i lost my phd admit which means i cant join phd in 2007 possibly..and the search for job looks never endin!..so thats my status..will talk to you..later bye..

words of karl marx and lincoln

"YOU MAY GET DELAYED TO REACH UR TARGETS BUT EVERY STEP TOWARDS TARGET SI EQUAL TO VICTORY"-KARL MARX

"I AM A SLOW WALKER BUT I NEVER WALK BACK"-ABRAHAM LINCOLN

Enlighted evening!

In the mornin went to the neighbours small kid birthday pooja..and the afternoon went with mom to buy certain things for the pooja...in evenin thanapal uncle came home he was one of the resons responsible opening my spiritual enlightment.We startd to talk on many topics..and as usual ended up asking "What is life!"..i feel very guilty that i dont read tamil my tongue that well..that has hindered me from learnin lot of things..it was again a enlightened evening i really like such conversations...and went to drop him in his home..spent time with his family a bit and returned home then..

had a good sleep..woke up to talk to you..bye.
veerabahu

into the studies..

..from yesterday i have been collecting materials on chaos and fractals related things that would be help in some ways towards the classification techniques.My immediate aim is to design a strange attractor to classify mental tasks..that was what i am tryin to do..got couple of books ..and few journals that might help me..in the final publish a paper..few more that would be sufficient for admit into phd..bye..

veerabahu

where am i goin!!??

Actually right i am kinda..stopped?...i dont know i am struck with my life for few months i have applied for my phd no reply..i have applied for jobs no response?..i am left struck wondering how i am gonna catch up with my dreams..hope i shld get a break..hope..hope...hope!!!

Went to kirba home today..he came by his car..so it was my turn to take our car to his home after learnin to drive..and went to koushik home too...

..bye..
veerabahu

?

I really dont wat to do?..i have applied for phd..and then start to search for jobs too..but i have done what i could..phd is very tough to get i am sure..i thought i would some job ..then support my research ..publish papers..then keep tryin for phd..even if i dont get then i would have achieved somethin by that time..that might be helpful to het my phd..my job is also in stand still..so i am also stand still..waitin for somethn for happen..
bye,
veerabahu

my trip to thiruvanamalai..my longest bike drive

Last wedneday 31 august i went to thiruvanamalai..i havent gone into the temple..i wanted to see lord shiva inside but didnt go for the last three times or so..i went for a long drive in my bike..it was somethin around 160 to 190 km from our home..so i started from home.

The traffic was bit there and i didnt wanna ride too fast it was 8.30 in the mornin and it took nearly 9.15 to 9.30 to reach the main highway bangalore bypass..i was drivin somethin around 45 to 50 km per hour..reached the first stop..i was quite late and again started to drive..then place ..after place went past me.There was time where i thought that i was standin still but the whole world was goin past me.I was just sittin in my bike and everthin started to go...i was reached tindivanam about 11.30 or somethin..there was 60km more the reach my place..the highway feel was goin .Riding into the normal road there..i read top speed 20 km.I had to drive kinda fast..along the way i stopped in the road side shiva..then saw the fort1 and fort2..which my mother would always talk abt..

FORTS: There are two forts very near to each other..that was very fascinatin..the hill was so steep i had no idea how they built sucha structure..

REACH THIRUVANAMALAI:I reached the place..it was afternoon and temple was closed and it will open only at 3.15.i was there by 1.So had food till 1.30,decided to go the ramanamaharishi asharam

RAMANA MAHARISHI ASHARAM:Its one those places were you would surely find peace.Its very silent.Trees and birds singing..this time i even found three or four peacocks.It was very good experience,quite a people from other countries.I was impressed by a young lady..very simple..might from UK or US..wore a traditional indian dress..everybody who comes here wears only that kinda dress..and a yellow bag..she was silent..and sittin there in the mediation hall...hope god gives her all that wants takin away all her pains..
I was mediatin for sometime..then went out to be with trees and peacocks..it was time around 3.10..so decided to go the temple

TO THE TEMPLE: It was 3.15 and i was in there..after crossin many small temples..and takin pics..reached the main temple..but i was to open only 4.So rested there till the time came.It did and went in,police questioned my bag i said there was nothn in there.So que was there.Final near the lord shiva..after so many years and nearly 5 hours bike drive.I saw him..majestic..it was very satisfyin one.

THE RETURN DRIVE:Immediate after seein him..i left for home.I had to be there home before the next day..60 to 70 km in 60 minutes in our roads..is something really.I drove so fast that i have never driven in my life..my kid bike is only 110cc,7.5bhp..but strong..he has been there most of my life.I am very glad to be with him..passion..is his name..we drove somethin around 85 to 90km per hr in some stretches..i reached the main road...again i drove quite okay.I was very good experience for me..me and my kid bike..we hit the last 20 km road..drove slowly and reached home!!

..Its was worth one..finding peace in asharam ..seein lord shiva..the bike ride..forts..peacocks..good one!

veerabahu

..partner made a comment i guess..made me laugh..

Havin food..gangai..sathya..i liked the ambience of the place..

hahahah..look at karthi..he wanted a thinkin pose..hahah..

I am seen in the pic..on our place..actually my place was near this one..

Our place..sathya..subash..suri..partner..this is where we used to wait for train..in our college days..

Subash gettin treatment.hahaha..

Subash,captain,partner near the temple..

Partner and captain in the train..on the way to siding..

"Independance Day -August 15 Visit to siding" We decided to go the siding on the independance day..partner,captain,subash,myself caught the siding train..went to the station..then to the temple..then sathya joined in..we went to aiyyar bhavan had starters only..haha..then mixed fruit juice..green memories..then we left avadi..to villivakkam to captain house..then to rest'aurtant called midnight express..there ate food..then came back to my house..played cricket..yeah..gangai joined in the villivakkam station before..after playin cricket..we decided to leave..gangai and sathya left..i dropped partner,subash near the station..

WORDS INSIDE..

THE CARD MY SISTER GAVE

9-8-2006 -RAKSHA BANDAN! mY sister never misses this day..u might call it a brothers day..from my childhood my sister has always given me rakhi..a thing to be tied in ur hand....today she was in hyderabad..but he had couried the rakhi and the card the day before..its was so nice of her..i am always glad to have her as my sister..

"Got my violin...Hahah..great it was..i serviced my violin..its sounds great now..i am very happy"

Our tea shop in siding we eat somethin here..sometimes the owner impressed by us used to cook poori for us ..we generally run short of time to caugh the train..we run some 2 kms..with 20 to 30 min to caugh this train..the big guys never used to run..we have to carry their bags..push them to run..sometimes even the train driver stops for us..haha...kind man..a whole group to support each other..push each other..with understandin..each and every day..to care for each other..if someone trips down..group rushes down to help and then startin runnin..this kinda affection and understandin happend everyday..its a feat by its own right..times change my friends now really afford so mucha times nowadays..but we cherish those days where we stood for each other..little fights..stomach painin laughters..dancin and drummin till we cldnt take any more..it really wanted to give tribute to my friends so went to siding alone...to relive those moments..and i did!!!!!!!!!!!!

We reach our college...

A bit further towards college..

The way to college..

The path to the temple..

"Oh the whole station will be lookin at us..we were makin so much a noise...laughin and fun..we cldnt help it..hahah..lotsa fun!!..after the train fun..foot boardin..bit of adventure..all those yellin and dancin..we land in siding..slowly walk towards this temple..we cherish this place..very silent..calm..we pray very mornin..then leave to college"

The day starts from here..we a group of friends..hug and wish mornin..wait for our beloved train siding..

August 6-Friendship daY!! went to siding

The day before..i wrote down all the names..and half of the few i wished overnight mailing and another half i called up and wished them..hopin that i didnt miss anyone.. there are quite a few close pals..who really dont need to assure them..but i made it a point to wish them...

I wanted to give tribute to my siding group..what i am now..siding and my group have a part of share of it..so went to siding alone..thinkin of all those green memories(listeinin ost -cinema paradisco..makes me feel)..those days we lived our lifes..wonderful..i will be writin and writin..if i start to..so great...train compartment full of our friends..not only the quantity..but the understandin as a group was good...laughin..teasin..makin fun..sharin little things..then the station came siding..lush green..even the mornin dew in the grass remain..we reach the temple...pray then leave..to small home were our little kids friends would be waitin to wave to us..we hug them..and say we would meet in the evenin..towards the college we walk...

Oh!!!!i relived those wonderful moments..when i walked on the same path..rememberin each and every incident of fun and pain...if somebody buys a new shoe..his footprint would be impringed on the sand..we used to see that..and compare..i was wearin a adidas this day..i made print all along the path..and returned back..it remained..
little little things...make such a difference in life..becos they are life!!

will see you..nice talkin to you in the morning!..makes me feel fresh!..tata..bye..

veerabahu.

Kota sir ,angel in disguise

I went to kota sir to get reco this friday..he is really a angel in disguise..he was very quick to help me..and finished the work within one hour or so..so kind of him and his greatness...he is high graded scientist..why on the world shld he help me..so well..that shows his greatness..i really dont have words to explain this..he is kind who doesnt really talk for long hours..but truely a man of action...understandin and analyzin a situation he is a master..

when i was workin..i used to get struck at a particular point and would say..i got struck sir..he would just say a sentence..chk this point this line...its done..he is such a nice human being..

i respect kota sir lots..the greatest gift workin in csio has given me is it scientists..we keep in touch somehow..

"Roamin for my reco and transcripts" This week is all about roamin for reco's ,i tried to get transcript too..so that is also goin on..wednesday went to the library for the last time..its only of those few places that i feel attached to..in this college..i understood many things and most of my thought process occured there..so the anna univ library is always special to me..even now i have to go get reco..i just hope that within next week i finish everythin and post my application..

People are my angels!!!

..sure i agree with the lines..

god doesnt come down from the heaven but sends messengers in the form of humans called angels

..whenever i feel a bit down..i really donno somebody whom i dont know comes and peps me up..ppl whom i never spoke to even from other part of the globe..come up and say..

come on..u can do it

..sometimes tears fill my eyes ..seein their lines and wishes over phone..messages..visit my home to tell me all the best..it means so much to somebody who is strugglin to come up..and these angels come up with some amazing words to push me further towards my goals...

...with all my heart thank those angels...god bless you all....everybody whom i have seen or not..whole world...has to blessed...yep,Mr.god dont miss anybody okay???hahahah....i will try to sleep now ..saw MI2...if i can sleep i will or else lets talk..listenin to esposthumus..ulaid...good night..i assure u that i will do my best to make this world a better place...

MY DREAM!!!!!!!!!

I am all smiles writing this!!!...i really dont know ..when i did my third semester engineering something struck..why are we reading??..why shld i get a B.E degree..what is the point in gettin marks..???..is it all of that paper sheet called money??(i respect ppl more than money..ppl are precious..u give a million and say to let go off my friend..i will never do that..)..slowly realised that whatever we do has a reason attached to that..(((spoke with dad...so took break now )))...
....so i thought if i could get a good job i can help people in some ways...that was the motivation for me sometimes..i hate to read for exams..i read to learn..and read what i wanna to learn..others i dont read..
...this maximised over time..till i took a big decision to get into research rather than development side..as any young researcher everybody has to through some very tough situtions... things that appear simple for others, appear hard for me..for example,ppl can afford to go big resturatants ..eat..give ppl a big treat.....i cant really afford anythin of this sort..some times u wish ..u buy a car like them...spent it&give money to everybody..earn lots of money that ppl respect so much..but a young reasearcher like me can never afford luxuries..its simple but beautiful life..i must say my life is filled with life!!!..i am glad to be workin on science...

..yeah,gettin back to decision ..i wanted to do something for people...becos na..i am nt a millionare to spend on charity..but a science student who could create things for my ppl that could change their life and bring happiness back..to step in the sands of time..these are my visions...

..someday ,when i become big na...i will built free hospitals ..orphanages..old age home..give my family and friends lotsa gifts...lotsa love and affection that they could ask for....spread knowledge and love ,creating a huge circle of such people...
.inspire lotsa ppl...

.....these are my dreams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...............................

Somehow this dog managed to climb up our compound..was sittin royally..

Another view of the great clouds..i still how they carry those tons of water..well done cloud..keep it up..good job..

Yesteraday was beautiful...raining..

The awesome fight..hahaha..

Deadly duel! Big sister and Little sister wearin my uniform..real comedy of fight..hahaha..

Three of us...sis,amma,veera..

MY friend..he has been with me for a long time..i love this kid..when i feel a bit down..he always peps me up..good kid..

Baski came home..we had a real good time ..talkin..dinesh called up..its was such a long time since we have spoken..long conversation..and good time..

I like this pics..took this in a mulitsnap mode..the expression is good..i like it..

Bala and veera..

Me and my sister..

Veera...on july20..its was great day..rainin..

Very interesting one!!..all of us tryin to jump ..so that one is taller than the other...

Durga,bala,dana,kalai sis,vidya amma,sundar appa..and veera ..

Cuttin cake

Pooja on her birthday

Birthday cake

AMMA on her birthday-jul19

Amma birthday-july 19!!!

..I wanted to give amma something on her birthday..and the other day the score were real low...my sadness should not affect my family's happiness.I and amma went to kirba home to see aunty..she got her leg fractured so wanted to see her..

GIFTS:I had some money ..something around 250...and wanted something that she really likes..so when returnin home..we went to Lakishman shruthi and we brought four cassettes..for her..she really like carnatic music and she was very happy...

TO THE TEMPLE,SURPISE AWAITS:We really didnt plan to go shoppin or the temple on the day..but things went on very well!..she wanted to go to a temple..i just stopped my bike and ..she went in& i too wanted to go in..we prayed for sometime..just told the priest that he had to do pooja the next day for mom birthday.. prayed for sometime...i really donno what made him..suddenly called me near the god...and gave me respects..with flowers and ..also gave special parasatham to me and amma..and he special ...touched my forehead to bless...and amma also got similar respects..i really donno what made him to do...we were just commoners..nothin special abt us..after the hardtime i had...this was very soothin for me..i started to regain strength..

SISTER COMES HOME ON 19:In the mornin ,i knew my akka would be comin home..my appa and amma did not know that..suddenly comes home and give amma gifts..suddenly surpises her..she was really stunned when seein my sis..that how the day started..thnen we called dana..and bala&durga..we started to have a very good time..in the evenin we cut cake and had quite a good time..previous day was good..and also the birthday was even better...

JEy and kumarish..after watchin the movie....reachin home..

watchin da vinci code..drivin in the night..

..before this i have to write abt my amma birthday and all events..after the blogspot was blocked by indian servers...

..today we went to da vinci code,movie..with jey,jag,kums and kirba..kirba was down..i had to call him for a movie..hope that he feels okay..i do understand its very hard for him..but...hope things are fine with him..

..i love riding in the night with the streets bein empty..all bikes with a constant speed..holdin the line..feels like those great warriors of the past..with their horses gallopin towards the enemy frontline..its like awesome...and night has lotsa silence with it..which adds real peace to the whole scene..now its 2 in the mornin..its very quite .i really wanted to blog this..good feelin..have to write on my amma b'day and next day with dana,the small potato..good time..will see you..bye..

Scattered...bruised...

...i really dont know how to react...i really donno..i am scattered and completely bruised...defeat after defeat...pain..pain..its just taking my breath ...
...i wanna do my phd no matter what happens...i know my work will directly go to my people i have reason for doin my phd..i will continue..to walk along...
..i got my score so slow...feel like i am fit for nothing....just have my last breath...i will fight it out...
...its just a horrible feelin nothin goes right...really nothing...its just i am not good enough...what the heck u know...cant even pass certain exams when did my ug and pg..cant even clear a single company test...just feelin weird...i am recollecting...i know i am phoenix...i will be back to my feet...fight it out...i got get my phd..and my work should go to people...god lets do it together...

"June 2-Mani marriage" It was mani marriage...after a longtime i met my old friends..guru,rajesh and ganesh ..its quite tough meetin these guys,uday is used to met quite often..it got to tell abt guru who is very good friend of mine but we somehow dont keep in touch..but the bondage is like phoenix always..such a knowledgeable lad with a mix of humbleness in heart..very gentle kinda person..very good person..it cant forget i am involved in music so much nowadays becos guru was one of reason for startin it..he gave me kenny g cassette in the second year..after the first year tour..i will always thank him for that..rajesh is my mylapore bus mate we used to talk and have fun..playin winkin game,srikanth will be the buffalo most of the times..haha...and ganesh is a very quite person..it was very nice to see my friends and wish them all the best for their efforts..will see you..bye..

26 JUNE Just awesome night..australis vs italy was gonin on ..it started to rain..i had my mp3 player and went to terrace with ES posthumus playin..it was such a great feelin..rain and wind were talkin to me..we were playin..it was great..i felt oneness with nature..with music and rythym of rain..hymim along..its was just great!!!!.But australia lost the match..it was stupid referee decision..i felt the sorrow..becos i have captained my team which lost a match ..i felt the pain that captain was goin thru...i just went to bed thinkin this..slept off..to wake up with happiness in heart due to the conversation with rain yesterday..

Along with tree

City view