PLAYING CRICKET -Today evenin was jam packed ...i played cricket .i just love playin..got out there..and give your best to your team!..its just awesome ...though we dont play the way we used to play..its quite nice to play ..pics show our team fieldin..kumarish standing in the point position..we lost the match :(..i was not out till the end..stood till the last ..but it was last wicket and we had to make 29 in 24 balls...we played well..fought the way we used :)..that brings my smiles..fought hard..till the end..but we had to take risk...and ended in a run out! ..it was 6 balls 8 runs..we lost it!..its was painin to go that far and lose it...but take it whatever comes...then went to aunts house..told durga all the best for exams and meet my school pal..julick..my dear friend..i will write on this ..somethin..i am workin on my project...eeg amplifiers&labview...

"DONT EXCEPT ANYTHIN FROM WHAT YOU DO" sounds weird arent it...thats the way life has to lived about.Its very hard on the initial phase and as time goes on we get used to that.In whatever perceptive that one might see it may that be the work that you do or the attitude towards others,we have to just give whatever we have excepting nothin from them in return.I am learning not to except success from my work that is i shldnt work for a gettin a job or gonna get money out of it.But just to do that because i love doing that.As a matter of fact,success,name and fame are just the by-product of this passionate work.What it matter for the individual is he is giving his best for what he loves doing that it,what ever comes out of that dont really matters,what he learns from that becomes more important that what comes out it!.That really explains how scientist&artist really takes money,fame and name take these in positive way and act responsible towards people and society,true some are exception ofcourse.Whereas their actors and actoress&others people who acquired name,money ,power,fame for the heck of attainin this and lived their lifes for it..thinking these are ultimate..thats why they are third rated people..poor thinking people(there are exception here too)...what they dont understand is name,fame,power and money are just by-product when we search for a thing greater,which lies within..and we should never go in search of these four words..they will come to us,if we do our work with love and passion just do without exceptation.

contd.................................win or lose in life thats secondary...but to live life is the most important thing that one has to do.Live each second,every minute counts,with those beliefs which matters most to you,with those beautiful thoughts for some it might be selfrealisation for some it might a thought from nature,livin a life in a way in what he believes in and to do with what he loves doin..mind u it shld be positive..with heights of thoughts that what i am talkin about..passion for what he is doin,that ultimately rates him and how he lived his life..sometimes word success is defined by idiots..like money or property..that is nonsense...success is a word that is defined to one self and in what he wants to be and what he has acheived in wantin to be..not in a view of others i mean... yeah so bein different sometime pains me for the mere reason there are things that i am attached to the society ..like money and their stupid thoughts..i am helpless at times..i cant even explain to them..what is true things..for they are blocked mentally..i am forced to get those things that society wants me to get..BUT I HAVE LEARNED TO BE WITH THEM YET COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FROM THEM AND THEIR VALUES..FOR WE LIVE FOR A GREATER REASON THAT GOD HAS SENT US TO DO! VERY GREAT THINGS THAT CAN CHANGE MANKIND FUTURE IN POSITIVE SENSE AND PROBABLY THE UNIVERSE,ITS ALL LIES IN ONES HAND ..TO SEE GOD IN ONESELF AND MANIFEST INFINITE...i will make it to the top...with thee bein within...respects to the fire!

"BEING DIFFERENT" -i sometimes feel that why the hell am i so different..everybody wants to similar to themselves ..only then people gets chances to come up in life..or else ..its very hard ..but i tell you...people who are different either they reach the star ..or..with sand..either case they are so happy for what they are..win or lose in

Against All odds- I am in a position where the entire societys belief..people..the state i am in ..are all against me!..its just very tough and hard to digest..i feel a mt.everest on my shoulders...if i get through phd stuff..i would be better for me..yeah i donno what will happen after that..again the same position..i learned so much..worked hard in my B.E ..then again the same position..fought hard again finishin my M.E..again same position...again fightin against all odds...but the load on my shoulders is beginnin to bring strength...and not only lift this..but run with it..happens only if the fire is within..flame reaches the height it should...

Writing my thesis - saw cinema paradiso yesterday..what a movie..beautiful it was great..prasanna gave that to me and it was wonderful...very pleasant feeling after watchin that movie..that solo violinist was very good too..real good movie...i am preparin for my gre too..in the side..i am finishin my project after a year of work...and though the last three months i didnt do anythin..it was satisfyin experience..sometimes lost on what to do..with my future..but i was very sad that i lost the chance to work in wipro..i thought that i could get thru..becos of cii..but that didnt happen..anyway everythin is for good and let hope that things turn out well...the fire within..has to see me thru..hope it does..

the wings of a eagle protects....

our family photo

vitchu,bala,durr

our camp fire..

april 13 and camp fire april 14 night...on the terrace..it was good time all of us..bala,vitchu and durr..were there and we had a great fun..and add to that a confessions were taped..so it was pretty good one...

praveen near canteen

the famous junction..we sat here ..near canteen..

praveen..at the junction..leadin to audi

the place where we studied

praveen..me..dina

april 4-nightout in my college anna univ only on the 3rd the day was fixed that data communication exam was on 6..so praveen and i ..decided to study the whole night in our campus..we were there at 6.15..praveena and dina came along and..we stared to study near the math dept..and we were just tryin to study..haa..had food and then the night ..i was wonderfull..we walked around the campus..around 3 in the mornin it was beautiful..and the time was so peacefull..it was very good...praveen became a good friend..

Summary month april This month i finished my only remainin arrear paper and then my final review with demo..and sister was there so spent time with her..vitchu..bala..durr it was a good time after a long..we had very good time and we took family pic ..and spent time in anna univ in the night which is first time for me ...

i had to kill small rats - i saw them in their eyes...small kids they were...four small rats..must be a week old..two were close together..and one escaped ..another one was stand..had to kill them all...since..they eat ...and spoil all our food....infect everythin in our house..i am very sorry for them...understandin life..and value of life...bein a science student..it was very hard..

"Remebering my college life"- It was 3 o clock in the mornin i did not sleep..i was reading my autograph book that my friends have written for me in the jaya college...beautiful it was...so great it was..all those people felt like they were close to me and around me..as before...though it wasnt to be...i just seems like yesterday..we were all together in a same class..all around me..my friends..it was such a great feeling i must say..i had close my autograph book and sleep.too late..so went to sleep..

prasanna gift- a beautiful painting.

veera turns a werewolf- prasanna gave me a birthday gift..so nice of him ...i am happy..our journey started when in the first year tour ..where started to listen to kenny g...and ..and then..science...bascially these two things are the strong points for our friendship..a very good friend is prasanna...

kirba-aunty,uncle and brother

uncle,me,kirba elder brother

"Kirba buys a car!!!!!!" -March 29 was very big day,kirba has brought new car..the victory is very sweet for us..we have won i feel...one point of college life or most part of it ..i must say that we were very worried kirba doin well in studies..he never used to study..that always worried us...but now..kirba has won a great life..thats thru his hardwork...and he works on things he doesnt like...when he likes one and does somethin..he goes all out for it..puts his heart and soul into that..i believe that this is the secret of his success...he has to go a long way..and i am sure he will have a great personal life too..

"Meeting suji".....march 25....i met sujatha around a week before 200 diwali..a very soft kinda girl...and very respectable one too..and since then we used to speak..and now i guess we got closer....i have found the innocense and sensitivity that humans are losing nowadays..in the midst of corrupted people and mentally blocked kinda people when we find a person like suji..i am so happy for her..all i wish is that she never changes over time...she has great potential to do well...its important that she works very hard towards that to achieve her goals..she main goal she says is to help people...to hear that i am very happy...for the week or so..she is unwell...vomittin..so i decided to give her a surpise..visit her home...and durga i picked up....and reached her home..i guess that was surpise..and she was caught off gaurd!!..aunty was also very sweet and she spoke to me for longtime..and i had a good conversation with aunty..and then suji..took around the flats..and we saw the whole part of it..temple and swimmin pool..and aunty gave us 'lunch'which was very good..she was sad that she didnt give proper lunch..but it was a very good one...so had food...and we spoke for sometime and...saw my blogs...and i guess time was running very fast...we were talking..again..and ..aunty gave us..some tiffin in the evenin and ..spoke with uncle for sometime..and ..it was time to leave...suji came to leave us..and..it was very nice of her..since she was unwell...and then had to leave..so went thika house..saw ram sometime..she liked the movie very much..and went to danam..dropped durr..on the way(koyambedu bus stop) met pradeep..and spoke sometime..and ..i was home...slept well.....suji is quite a special sister for me...

march 19-gangai was home...we had good time together..college days..returned to us..we played cricket..and football..and amma ..have us tea...and father ..from temple gave pasadam to us..

koushik and veera..

march 18-spending time with prasanna and koushik in the beasant nagar beach..

march 17-attended the speech of guruji vasudev jaggi

sathya and karthi..

our college..

march 16...our college we three together in the canteen we usually spend time..

march 16-around college with sathya ,karthick..pics...showin alyil sir,arun,me and sathya in our lab

King kong- saw king kong...the only constructive work..it was holi...it was more than four since we celebrated it..

Moon seen by a tree top - just looks a gentle arms holdin a baby...branches engulfing the moon...yesterday i took pics..i havent seen moon in this view..and beautiful it was...

self portrait..tried with my cam

so played ..i got a bit of line right..and i was seein the ball right..but have to work on many things too...and we went to violin class...spent time with young violinists...and ..came home vitchu was there..gave him the slippers and aunt and uncle was also there..that is how it was 

i never excepted to play today as i had lotsa work to do ..to do with eeg amplifiers...since i had not slept ..for three days well...slept in the afternoon..and ..my friend sathya..he is kinda special pal to me..i remember in the first year when i had problem with seniors he was the one who said i will be with you..so we stood for each other in lots of probs...in the final year..we both stood against the big group...so its kind of we have quite understandin...he is kinda of spiritual attitude..very emotional kinda person..sensitive too...so thats how it is...it was long since i had played cricket..i had brought a new ball and wanted to play..so we played..another group of guys also joined...just  

morthy and praveen came home today..after they had finished their conference at rmk...i was playin with sathya..we saw bit of house of flyin draggers,crouchin tiger and lords of rings 2.. 

march10- gettin the rhythm ..i am getting back my rhythm right..i have been workin for few days now..and slept three in the morning..most interesting thing nowdays is that i am not gettin tired at 3..but more energy'tic..and finding such a peaceful mind at the end of it...silence all around..beautiful night..i dont wanna sleep..but i just sleep..3 or 3.30..i have to keep this pace goin..final stretch of year work....goin..goin..see you. 

Bhagavadgita II.67 

i gonna a post somethin ..in between!..my lkg pals came home!!..sathyan..ashwini and vignesh..it was satyans marriage invitation!!...so glad for him..from your view left extreme is veer..a visible pen in my shirt 

kailash temple 

lonar 

lonar 

test 

  

testing 

jan22

..jan 21 i had made lots friends on the train..train has always been special to me one in which i had made quite friends..
..vikas was one..another mother,baby,a kid..we played lots with that kid and the baby..it was touchin when their mother came up to us and gave sweets ..which she had done..:)..world is full of nice and good people..

..i had to go to jalgon so had no idea..i didnt have no clue what they were talking and i had no idea abt hindi and marathi...all i knew was tamil and english and had to talk both english and hindi to survive..

a person helped me to reach jalgon bus station..by auto..and which i reached jalgon on 22..and then from there..aurangabad..120 km..as reached the place took an auto to reach my hotel amardeep..

jan 21

i had my paper selected for the conference it was national level on..the conference was on 23 and 24..planned in such a way that i would reach the place one day early so i left..on 21 mornin..father came to the station to send me off..

..it was longtime since i had long away from home and many things unexcepted happened..in the learning sense..

..i was among the people after longtime ..since most of the time i stay away from people...i found that very interesting..there was man with full of eatables near me and suddenly somebody wanted to watch a fellow about 20 years..i said i would around to take care..i said to my father to take care of my mother and himself..and asked him to leave...

..the journey began and the train started ..journey which provoked my spiritual part ..again...journey towards the ancient temples of ajanta and ellora began..

meeting venki

venki and i shared such a beautiful friendship ,i guess it was more of knowledge based learning.He is full of knowledge..lot to help from him.
We studied together...in our 11 and 12 and he is very near to my home.He taught me how to write the entrance exams..and lot more.
We went to movie ..twice i think.. i cant forget in 11 standard..in arunashalam ..there is scene where rajini..accidently kisses..soundara..not actually..but venki closed his eyes with his hands...suren was there...we were laughin like anythin!..
so innocent he was!.
and on 16 dec..he came home in the evening...and i thought i will reach his home..before he came to my home..total failure..i went to his home..he reached my home!!..so i had to return back..he was waitin for me.
Then we started to talk...sharing lotsa things..how its was for him....but he has adjusted quite well to the place..i am really happy that he is making his home a great place..he has brought so many things ..this time he has brought ps2 for his sister...
i got to tell you this..he is real computer science wizard..great one!...does his phd on compliers..he has learned swimmin it seems!!in his course work..
i am glad that i met my pal...

veerabahu.

i am disappointed with few ppl here..

..i donno..i saw blogs here..that promise so much..but ultimately like our politicans i guess..
..what dumb people are these ..

cheers!!!

Finally we won!!..we won in the CII italent place..it was very hard fought one!..i went to tidel audi for the first time and my things into the audi..
i and bala went to the place..he had helped me a lot and we went together..my presentation was the first one to take place...i was working till 4.30 in the mornin..cldnt really sleep..maybe i slept at 5 or somethin..woke up at 6.30..got ready...as a matter of fact..our project wasnt working..from 11 and started to work around 4.30 in the mornin,thank god it did!!..
..once the demo worked ,the confidence carried into the presentation part...and i did the ppt ..pretty ok..there were questionin session and i did that kinda ok..too...and started to relax..and then i was called for the final three demo..mine was in the top three..but for the second time the demo didnt work..so i had to give the demo part alone ,was disappointment ..thats the way it goes..
..it was time to announce the prize ..name was called second..and we won second prize..rs.50,000..cash award,,then there were newspaper interviews..i didnt think it was such a big one...hindu,indian express...took pics..man i felt like some kinda celebrity...hahaha....
next mornin..article in hindu was published..calls started to come...and i donno i just felt different..so we have won!!..7-1-2006..we won!!..
..and on 10-1-2006 a big article with my pic was published..haha..i just felt different..

our people are so good...they gave me such a great support and encouragment...now i have the bring somethin to reality ..up and working...i gotto to start again..somehow make it!!!..i am leaving for aurangabad on 21..and will be back 28...

happy new year!

wish you a very happy new year...i was workin on my project on the new year eve...and started to work on the new year day. There was get together of my whole family in my house.All my family member brought food from their houses..we ate well ..slept sometime...saw movie together..in the evenin..me vitchu,bala,shalu,shali..played cricket..then vitchu left..we started to talk and it went upto 1.30 am..it was time to sleep we went to sleep..
i am very focussed in completing my project work..on 6..so nothin is in my mind other than that...

it is very good ..to dream and then bring that into reality...feels like a small creator..hhahah...

see you..
veerabahu.

dec 22 =anand godnathan!

hi!

yeah thats the way it is dec 22=godnathan!...its such a longtime since we met..we are such a good friends from our school..11 and 12...how the friendship began??...he used to sit in the front bench and i always used to pinch him and beat him...he gets very angry..hehee..

Treaty of peace:
and then somehow...anand ,balaji(na'ku!!!!) and krishna kumar,myself got together..and thats how our friendship really blossomed..and i will shout godnathan if somebody enters the class room..and everyone will start to shout..anand will yell at me becos girls also laugh..so he used to yell at me..and we had a treaty that i shldnt shout godnathan!..

good student:
he made me study..in a sense ..i used to think a lot about theory of relativity and time travel.. i was not doin well as student...
he made me study and this success...helped me in 12th standard which made me to enter engineering..

so the back to the story...we planned to meet the director help age india..we went to place...but my bike was makin hell of noise hahaa...and we spoke to that..then we went to burma bazaar..brought some dvds..

and then directly home.....played violin a bit..
and spoke for long...learned abt his research...

and then we started from home to fill petrol..then to buy gifts for his friend ramya in collections...then at waves jeans...and finally my best resuratant the roof top...and we eat dosai..time to drop him at railway station..thats the way it was..

will see you...bye.
veerabahu.

dec 11 very eventfull day!

this day was very eventfull indeed..morning i meet maggi ,a friend of mine ..she came home when very young now she is grown up ..and it was fascinating time spend..astonished by her maturity and intelligence at a very young age...very talented too..

..after that i got spoke with abi...4th standard school friend ,it was good talking to here,though we never have spoken in our college..she is a very good person..that is beauty of good pals...seconds we blend together....she is good pal now!.

evening went to dinesh marriage..initially political ppl were takin charge i didnt like it..thought that i would go out ..but after a few minutes..mom was there..rakesh and his mom was there...maha was there..so long since i have meet them. dinesh was getting married !!!..then praveena came ..spoke with her..and senthil was also there...and suren introduced his girl..i was very happy ...seeing this couple...and then we went to give dinesh the gift...rakesh and rahul suren sis kids were so affectionate..i like this kids a lot..

when we got down from the stage..i walkin down the path..then suddenly somebody came in..to wish..oh god that was easwar..it was such a surpise to see him..:)..then he introduced me to his girl...i was very happy to see them both..after such a longtime we have tasted success...easwar and i have shared so much even we were 12 standard..and seein him settle in life...makes me feel so happy...and then we had food and time to say bye to rakesh and his mom..i and mom..came home..india had won 3-2 hockey match with pakistan..so that was the day!!

see you..bye.
veerabahu

a girl with lotsa determination

"i saw team of girls on news channel , one called vharna portrayed such a determination and will-truely inspiring but lacks sponsors like all other girls in the sport-she is a boxer.she doesnt even have friends-so strong mentally to reach her goal.Learnt few lessons from her..she resembles me a lot "

veerabahu

december is blossoming!!

oh! i am happy i wanted to tell you this..my school friends(10-12) will be coming from states and canada...haha...

..i spoke with my friend suren today!!...after three years very good feeling very happy and anand i coming on 8 dec..and praveena with her husband...

i am very glad ..have exams tomw system theory fifth time i am writing haha..but i cldnt really hold the excitement so putting in my diary..:)..

and dec 25 (ug college friends) we will be goin out on a trip...i hope it is long bike drive to a place..fun it would be ..longtime since i have driven my bike for hours...and it will be tigers cave i guess...dont anyways it will be good one...

..i have to go nw and study...will see you ..tough week ahead 5,6,7,8,14 exams thats it...then good bye to sem exams in my pg...then viva for my thesis..

bye,
veerabahu.

my first blog with my broad band..

...i am writing my first blog on my broad band ..though the speed is slow when compared with others countries...it is quite good...

i am learning a lot from my project work...i have write all i am learning in here......

"i saw team of girls on news channel , one called vharna portrayed such a determination and will-truely inspiring but lacks sponsors like all other girls in the sport-she is a boxer.she doesnt even have friends-so strong mentally to reach her goal.Learnt few lessons from her..she resembles me a lot "

as a matter of fact i am writing this for the third time..haah..same thing...once got cut..and another time..disappeard..another time i wrote didnt record...haha...

anyways will see you..bye...
veerabahu.

..journey ..

i am learnin and learnin..from end of last year..i have been working but no way near what i can work...now i have started to work..

this is what i am ..i guess...simple...learning from nature..always..great fascination is nature....i am tryin out something from the nature .hope that work...

these are the things that i have learned...if we understand music... we start to feel the vibration of the universe...slowly...

working on the symmetry and self similarity of nature..that might help me in my future too...

my final project is teaching me many things in few months...i am very very glad that i took..that topic...


will see you.bye.
veerabahu.

..back..

hi there!,

...took such a lot of time to write to you..sorry for that though..yeah this is my personal diary...online..haha...

..i was working on my project and got to work that is reason i couldnt write and got to keep recordin ...

news from my side! i cut my long hair this month,back to short cut ...i dont bother what the heck it is...

i am learnin a lot from my project and there is lotsa of work to be done though
...and..

will see you soon!
veerabahu.

went to my ug college today!

ya, today i went to my college after 3 years with my college mates...feelin very satified...went by siding train we always to used to go..in the same timing too..to see that train in the mornin itself brought good memories... computer science and textile friends were not there today...but was very good a feeling today...

we went to met charan today who was from uk ..doin his ms there...he gave a treat afterwards...

guess what??..we went to class that we sat ..in the same place everyone sat and we took pics there..and went around the college like we always used to...nobody was there except us in the college so that was also very interestin....

..saw uday name in bulletin board and prasanna name in the toppers list...

...after that..we walked to the bus stand..actually brought the photos..of the small kids pics...friends...but couldnt find them..so didnt give them..

..we walked from sidin too..saw tanks too..thought we take pics..but we would get caught na..so we didnt..

and after seein college we went to bus stand by walk...and took a share auto...haha...carryin all of us...

and then aiyaar bhavan..new one..it was small shop..first..and now..it is pretty good...charans treat so we ate..then he had to leave...

we caught another train...talkin in the board as usual...makin fun..and playin..then subhash got down at ambattur and then me..had to leave...said bye ..and left..like always in college times....
..shoutin and laughin...

very good day...very satisfyin...and ..peaceful

veerabahu.
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