My anthem !!!!

So somebody has finally created anthem for me !!! :) not exactly ..from the movie "Ravanan" -Tamil movie by Mani .

"Veeram" - Means Brave,Courage in Tamil -derived word is Veera or Veer.

This character in the movie 'veera' has most qualities that makes me..atleast i believe so :) hahahahah...

So this song is my anthem ! .  Thank you AR rahman for composing the song.Vikram for portraying an powerful character..mani for making this movie..i loved this movie ..

Football !!! - A relationship

First game i started playing around 4 yrs..my father taught and brought me a football when i was 4th standard...memories are flooding in.. :)))
                                                          At 8 yrs,   We had a wonderful team then arvin,joseph his brother ,ram sathish and another guy dont remember his name..an opponent team had 7 guys..we had lot of clashes those days..i remember the epic match..best of 5..we were 0-2 down..from that point we won..5-2..i scored the 3th one..playing the right winger..it was swift attack...

Remember how bad i felt after losing that ball :(..very loved one..i took care of her so much..i hit a wide pass..ball went to road..a bus driver stole the ball and drove away..chased him a long way..lost in vain..

After that nothing much in football till i joined Jaya engineering college..first year was very interesting..we really threatened our final year seniors..it was good match..bt lost..

My final year - was the captain and played the center forward ..i missed a pretty easy chance..one i regret even now..i shld have scored..gave my best to win the match for my team..it went to penalty..we lost..a semifinal match..had we won shld have been final..

 thus the last chance to hold a medal in football - first love..was also lost..








                       

"Unheard Love "

                                               [Painted by veerabahu]








This painting remained unseen..just lying in my room, rolled for six long years ..until i decided to take it out..and show it to the world

Flowers and Love

                                                   [Painted by Veerabahu]

            "Flowers are wonderful symbols of love :) . "

Nature's Symmetry

                                                     [Painted by veerabahu ]

For some reason choose paper as medium .

Nature's Symmetry :

Inspired by great scientist De Broglie's hypothesis - " Nature is symmetric " . Painted this .

" Universe is symmetric..all living and non living things are interconnected and unified by a source . Symmetrical means the variation between two elements compared is constant or one is 'x' times multiple of other . They share the common property . Here , replaced the human mind by a tree - meaning mind resembles the tree's property - interaction with environment -it gives and it takes . Similarly mind receives signals and transmits - makes decision .

Human has two parts - within and whats seen outside . Whats seen outside is a resultant of whats within . Here, red colour is used - to symbolize aggression ,determination and will to achieve goal -destiny . Destiny represented by the final fire - shows a complete life cycle-child,adulthood-marriage, and lone battle to destiny-lighting is lighting of fire .

The society see's a beautiful outside image of such a human - he spreads peace - green colour  and knowledge -blue . Such a human is worshipped and respected even by angels "

Childhood games - A real training experience that helps me even now

Games between Age 5-8 :

At  4 yrs, found my friend Srikanth...at 5 we formed a team of four - Srikanth,Veera,Chandru,Prabu.

Sometimes Srikanth used to steal others pencil box ..magnetic boxes was very famous..he used to steal these boxes and take this magnets out..we were not aware of this..

Other classmates knew this..and thought that we four were part of this..sri never told us and we believed him ..until in class 5 he accepted and showed us the secret place..where he stored everything..

The whole wld literally hunt us down !..there was 2 small breaks and one big one-lunch..moment bell goes..we wll run out..since four didnt stand a chance against 45 boys inside the small classroom...

I must accept it was frigthening..just the thought of getting caught...my classmates formed groups to hunt and chase..to beat us...sometimes even their elder brother will chase us..

It taught me..unity..not to give up on my friend under extreme condition..we stood and fought together..sri and I were good runners..chandru and prabu was okay..

And also ,we were good fighters:)..hahah..small boys....sri was v strong for his age..chandru was heavy..prabu was feather...i used punches and kicks well !.....

Everyday it was either you escape...if caught..a battle against 4 vs 40...i am glad to say we beat them up many times..and got beaten up fewer times...do or die !

These guys were not only our enemies but our girls as well ! dont know why :)...we didnt like them:)

 Games between 8-13 :

 As we grew up..there was no enmity..the chasing thing gave rise to game called "Chain"..first a caugh'ter...manages to touch a running away guy..he is out..they both hold hand to form a chain..to caugh another..like this the join goes on..

since 15 to 20 holding hands and chasing is hard..we formed pairs...to chase...over a time..it became a predefined caughers and runners...

I am runner....love to fight it out till end..i was a last remaining warrior most times..running around..few moments still linger in my mind-imagine a big line of pairs..as u cross them..they create a arc to get u...wonderfully to find a solution from a nearly gone position..

This spirit is still with me..and keep the lessons learnt when small close to my heart and mind...

Visualizing Victories

" When the body cries...when the destination is no where in your sight..find yourself in a point where you cant go back..sometimes feel to stop and give up this fight...

At those points -Visualizing the victories...what you will go through..emotions..happiness..joy..tears of success..these thoughts will give hope...hope to carry on..

..to hold on..to walk on..."

At this point..."I say to god keep holding my hand..we have a big battle to fight after this walk.."

Beautiful walk..:)

Had been to my village...Had been on a walk with my closest friend nature..my cousin was also there...

..sun was setting behind the mountain..as we walked those silent paths filled with green plants..place looked untouched for centuries..we walked along a path taken by a stream..

Beautiful it was..relaxing..after the walk with clouds in parabumpara..this walk i cherished..lost in silence...beauty holding me...
Pics:Taken in 2006

Beautiful Evening :)

Day before yesterday 26 Feb 2009

Small success in my project that too on the evening of a weekend :) is a wonderful feeling to go into weekend on a success note .

As I live alone and work in my own lab [sis has delivered a boy baby :) parents in LA now] in my home itself..its more like Tom hanks "cast away "..for me ..take few calls..thats it..then its more me and my science works..i dont see any one..self imposed hibernation..thats what my work demands..if gods will if i can acheive what i am aiming for..will have a very positive impact on our society and good career for me..

okay coming to the evening..i decided to go out to buy some books for a friends sister..in train !wow :) always reminds me of my college days and my friends..relive those moments..fast trains,people,the tree there..

Took a train to central...was footboarding as usual..near central ..circus has opened again i guess..the excitement i had as a small kid as all lil ones.. my parents took to them..the trapeze was feeling of wow! :)..beautiful times..went to moore market..

i didnt get the book..was looking around after that..was so happy to see the old moore market feeling coming as antiques filled the places..there were painting...old clocks..old coins..its like museum to me yet i can buy something..i was searchn for telescope..most nt working..one was bt..cldnt adjust zooming..good to see that :)...

So came back home with a happy feeling !..

Review - Seven pounds

12-15 am - just finished watching Seven pounds . Feel emotionally touched and heavy.

Beautifully portrayed love- So emotional touching and very natural- simple real love .

Might be argued that does the candle has to burn itself out to give light ? why it alone ? - "it has to".Very true.

Feeling of guilt and loss paves way to see a person turn nearly to god's status - to exhibit extreme compassion.Thats a short version of the movie.

Rating : Must watch

Beautiful romantic song!

I could feel all love and romance...wonderful..wow!..wow...so romantic :).....i hum to the moon and flowers&computers around..

Touched ...

I feel touched with many families caring for me so much..as my families members are in LA these families care for so much..i am simply touched and moved..

I live alone for this short duration which is not a big deal for me considering my work keeping me occupied all along..these families are so sweet most days they call me..show so much care..and always invite me for food...

"its your home..stay here itself"..."i am like your mom.."...."you my elder son.." these words are fill me with emotion..these are neighbor,friends family...

felt so warm...justified about my decision to leave canada for good..and live with people whom i love..god bless them all....

Keeping my kid within alive and kicking

As one goes into adulthood..some wonderful things that one did in his childhood goes into hiding..only the closest of my people know quite a bit abt me..I been one playful lil boy when small...all day long wl be roaming with football...

When in school i was expert in keeping paper tails without the other kid knowing ...make a big tail..and attach to the shorts of the other boy kid sitting in front of me without his knowledge...god! when he walks out of his place..whole class wld be laughing at him! :)..sorry my friend..they used to keep one for me too..only friendly stuff nothing to hurt anyone....but shhh dont tell to anyone once masterminded painting a teachers shirt..we used  to succeed to an extent :) ...

Now I am old enough but the kid is still live and kicking...few weeks back we had great fun..shall post on that..

Something I have learnt...the kid within is generally a stress buster..wonderful to be with :)..enjoy playing with him...when goin gets tough..he is also a part of the recovery team :)...so all out there...get ur kids within alive and kicking!

Putting your soul in what we do!

Putting soul,heart and mind in what we do is all it counts..then success becomes a relative word!..we feel something within...a divine touch so beautiful as the gentle breeze ..as a butterfly touching you and saying a hi! :)..

need nothing from that...just put the three into one place.. :)

PS: Liked the art . Let my blog be a lil ad board for artists . Click on image u will get direct link.

A childhood conversation

"we were three of us..julie,ashwin,veera..we sat in the same bench ,studying 4 standard..created a logo for ourselves and a dream for three of us..

it was to create a airport...ashwin builds the port with civil work as civil engineer..i take care of planes as aeronautic engineer..julie does the legal stuff and admin..as lawyer..

after nearly twenty years looking back...we havent built a airport yet! :)..but built ourselves for what we wanted to be...i choose to be electronic engineer rather than aeronautic..ashwin choose to be computer science engineer...julie is a lawyer...dream does happen :)..."

"SO NOW WE HAD ANOTHER CONVERSATION !!!....................................................."

Biography of Alexander Graham Bell

It was a easy to read book "Biography of Alexander Graham Bell " it was inspiring to learn abt Alex sir :)..

I brought this book in Halifax in the Maritime Museum which holds the remains of titanic..i brought few things related to titanic and SS Atlantic too..

Coming to the Alex sir life..most beautiful thing is he achieved success in both this career and personal life...rarely someone does so strong research and falls in love..goes behind everywhere! :)...thats too hard for me...he has wonderfully balanced both! to marry someone whom u love is itself a achievement[falling in love is itself a achievement for me!]...

His wife as hearing challenged..he was her teacher and to be correct she was the one who showed Alex sir to the world! ...that's why they say "behind every man's victory there is a woman"..

Look at his inventions god!..from biomedical t0 telecommunications to aero...its told that his invention is used in the planes even now..he invented a machine to identify bullet which gets into body..along side of Wright brothers..Alex sir society created so many inventions in aviation..

Thanks for the book !..Thanks Alex sir for telling few stories indirectly to me!..

Stephen Hawkings beautiful question !

Always believed that answer to the ultimate..grand unified theory will be on uniting micro and the macro levels...i was excited to hear that the same belief was responsible for answering the big bang..

Hawkings question if i m right on technical terms-what happens when atom enters the black hole.. sucha beautiful mind :) linking both extremes that unrevealed the mysteries of universe....

I was very happy to read hawkings proof -> for the existence of the another time plane..and existing of infinite universes...reading all this i just feel "zero" has something extraordinary abt it..lets see..

Hope that theoretical physicist like him and great human are created more in this world...

Gods purest creation "Stephen Hawkings "

[Great battles] Veera Vs Pressure Cooker - Flashback

For some reason my great battle with pressure cooker came to my memory .

"It was late evening when i decided to engage my enemy with heavy artillery -2 cups of dal but unfortunately with too much of gun powder-water . Added to that my less efficient multiprocessing brain forgot that...

It had warned me many times whistling not to engage in the desert area-stove...but i was doing something...after a long time..nothing happened..silence...oh god i have forgotten realized...

As i am a warrior[ :) love to say that !]...never gave up..i decided to remove the weight from its head..thinking it was dead..

oh god..oh god!it was ambush....its was pushing steam like anything...i thought its gonna explode..frightened..stood i..didnt give up..stood my ground..gonna explode ???..

luckily it ran out of steam...i stood there...it was small battlefield-kitchen cum hall...so it was battle where i learned...another day to live :)

Tendulakar - A Legend -Sorry sachin we didnt play well to win

Today saw one of the great innings of my life played by Sachin . Artistry ,temperament,determination every thing one need to acheive a near impossible target.Such was the master in this innings against Australia chasing 350 to win .

I am very sad , none of the other players supported him . I feel guilty of not doing much[what can i do ! ??? pray :) ]...sorry...really sorry..actually indian cricket for sure dont deserve a committed person like you . You got the technique or not..other players just had to play with grit - all others-partially raina[why did he play that stupid pull shot! ? when he cant ]...where was Jadeja running ?.. yuvaraj ?...if a team cant score 19 runs at nearly 19 balls with three wickets...i dont think its a committed team applying themselves for the situation...

I dont want to waste time on this indian cricket...we have lot to learn from sachin ,his humbleness and the great person he is...i really feel indian cricket dont deserve a player like him..you are too good and noble...sorry sachin for what happened today..i feel miserable..and how much a player wld feel giving his best miracle and the team mates dont pull it off a easy win ..again and again...i have gone this so many times being the captain in cricket and football..

i feel what sachin feels now..as i felt...losing that football match-semifinals..sorry sachin...

Meeting a lil cat + George winston-joy

Its been two years since my lil friend Arrow passed away ,though she was baby cat ,she lived as though she was my child...i saved from dogs when he was a week old...today i was writing a mail..suddenly a white thing passed..went out to see..a lil cat standing..i fed him with milk..it was raining..surpising within minutes he came in my arms..like a mother holding a child..i held him..he was silent..just put his head in my stomach and closed his eyes..and then left him downstairs..small place is there for him to stay..i dont know if he wl stay though..

Always great combo of " rain + Paino " ..this piece is very close to my heart..george winston -joy..she has also played very well..thank you...