..i am getting back...

...ya..i am feelin my old self with ..starting of few things but i have a lony way to go.....and fear that comes to when i dont perform everyday..

we got to make something happen from nothin...sometimes this is very difficult ...

i am glad that there is something called as blogger...its good feelin to talkin abt everythin...and ...i am always this kind to talk to myself...this blogger.com ..makes me feel home..and enjoy myself...record my success and failures...important of my failures and downs...becos i will write how i overcame these tough phase of life...and when i fall ..i will get up soon next time...

if i win its gonna be big..if i fail its gonna be a big fall...i love
taking risks and challenges..and solving problems in life..lets see what happens...in a year...and this phase is quite important for me too...bit by bit i am walkin towards my success...
"journey of thousand miles starts with a single step" -donno remember who wrote this...not mine ofcourse..

...the signs that i am gettin back are ..haha..ah...haha...i generally lose sleep...wake up in middle of night...thinkin what i am gonna do for my future...and science to a degree...

::))..thinkin i shld do this and that...i get confused again sleep...
..acheivin somethin..is not gonna be any easy!!!!..

not only that...i got work towards a better world..my career and my world..thats my motive..i will do somethin for those small kids...and the small kid...i am tryin...that is why we all met today to talk abt this thing...a light is visible...we got to work united..
hope that we can do something...

quite relaxing talkin to myself...i love to spend time alone...jog for long distance...drive my bike a long distance...along with music...

right now ..listenin to puthiyamugam-azhagu(suseela)...i like to write long mails too it shld be right person ...

..i will talk when i wanna to ok...

love.

.....excited!!!!met my childhood friends...

....excited!!!!met my childhood friends...

...oh god!!..oh god!!!..thank you for this day..i am very greatful..

mornin received a call from my friend ravi that there was meeting of
old friends at 4...that is my lkg to tenth ..we did in sboa cbse ,annanagar.
.finished my tenth in 1996...nearly ten years..

...had a small nap woke up at 3.30...had food ..i had msged my friend julick
to reach ..school main...awesome place ..as small kids we both would
eat in the nearby hotel generally we have would very little money ..
we used to share..i am smiling right now thinkin those glorious days..

listening to "right here waiting"-richard marx,"paradise"-phil collins,
makes me emotional even more.

in everyone life,schoolin and college days are those periods filled with
beautiful moments ,i am no different...always something to cheer about.

from 3 years kid...these friends were with me...we shared some great
moments, happiness ,failure in exams...disappointments in small games..
..hide and seek we play...

..in 4 standard,8 years we had formed a "ghost buster gang"..hahaa...
the whole standard would be afraid, we claimed that we saw ghosts ..
and we did some kinda of black magic...haha...

..it looks a movie narration..(spoke with my friends to thank them for such a
effort to bring everybody now) ..now we have to hold to each other..after time brought
a break...physcially we different now,but same old good friends in heart,
maybe we should have played caugher game or hide seek..haah..in the road..
25 old year guys playin on the road..would have been a comedy..we didnt play..haah..


..comin to story,when i reached the place where i saw ..julick waitin along with ravi,vivek
and maharajan(whom i dont know ..but knew him now)...we were talkn..and people slowly
started comin in...shanmugam joined in(d section)..then there was mothi and jothi..
and vignesh(last week i saw him in railway station..we recognised each other in a
flash after 10 years..spoke just a few words.my trained started had to leave without givin
my number..oh god..missed my friend..found and lost)...when i saw again..oh what a feelin...
when i found my friend again..

then arun,senthil(from d section)...then we called ashwin if he was comin..he said he was..he
was quite close to me...julick,ashwin and myself were good friends we sat together for years..
we had a symbol to our friendship ..aim too( our childhood dream.. ashwin was a civil engineer
..we built a airport...ashwin builts it...i am aeronautic engineer managin that part...julick
a advocate , a adminstrator of the airport!!!..though we didnt built a airport...julick is a
advocate...i am electronics engineer...ashwin ..visual communication degree holder!!..
..so we are up to our childhood dreams)...
..then ashwin came in his pulsar...he looks the same old fellow...there was great friendship hug..
..we spoke for sometime..exchanged numbers....had a great time makin fun...it was time to leave..
i went straight to temple..prayed ..i dont why..i rarely go to temple..i felt like goin..

met another small kid ..who is my friend in the afternoon,felt good to met him today.

..i am feelin blend great happiness...and emotional in my heart..tears filled my eyes when
i started to write...not because of sorrow..but true happiness and peace..

...we got make this world a better place...with all our heart..hopefully we would...

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..feeling heavy..

...something i got to think about..

i suppose this post would be on personal thoughts.....

...i feel heavy ...sorrow in my heart..its quite rare for me to feel
that way...i am feelin this way for long time...i dont why?..

..may be becos of my decision on my career..my choice was hard very one...
another reason should be i am losing my friends...that is obviously...
since i never let go....my strength and my weakness i suppose...

..i am fighter to the core....i am losing my heart when i am very close
to my goals..when we fight six long years to acheive something...it is
quite hard...to come up in life...it is just one more year...by this time
next year i will be in good job...since i am a student now...


i have completely stopped working..so i am gettin distracted ...once i
see fire within....every obstacle will disappear...when i am goin to see that..

morever i am completely different person as whole..i dont belong
with the societies taste....right from belief to god to my music..
i am different..

that makes finding friends completely difficult task..when i do ...
i will do anythin to make them happy...yeah a special person would
surely receive whole hearted love....a hold of never let go..

...that is prime reason i hate to lose a friend...i just cant let go...

...whatever it is..we have to hold our character ...fight it out...in
life we gotto fight it out..and enjoy every bit of it!!!!!!!!!....

i felt like talking to someone...


maybe days to come will tell about this...today is fathers day ..so
gonna buy my father something...i had gone to my cousins marriage have
talk on that too..

veerabahu.

..to hold a true relationship..

....to hold a true relationship.....


*In a very true love, hardest question is how close we have to hold
the relationship....key is not to hold it too tight it will break...
not too loose it might fall...hold it as though you hold flower close
on your heart not firm to crash it...yet you feel the tenderness in your
heart..and too far...as not to see its beauty and smell its fragrance.
* men need understanding...woman love..(majority...either are important).
*There shld be reason for it...to survive...not just between both of you
but should be for a higher reason for a cause...which one of reasons
when people with long term goals unite...they support each to reach
their destiny...all the more its great feeling of holdin a person..and along
with it a cause of other people or the society..their relationship
has blossomed so much..
*100% true to each other(HAHA....which shop you gonna get
people might ask..that is how it is now..)...
*100% love..

correct if i am wrong...drop in your suggestions too..

..fight loneliness..

..fight loneliness...

yeah one of those which hit us hard...
Instead of thinking what makes people react in a way..think why they
reacted in a unwanted way and their habits...
from drugs to heartless flirts....loneliness could be held reason...

*so what could be done - hard truth...you got to be alone there is
no one for you...
*love your own company..love yourself...keep talkin to yourself when
goin gets tough.
*people want to be with people who found themselves..so that they can
find themselves...if you are lost you cant find anyone...it only when
you find yourself you find the right person to be with!! or else
you end in a false relationship...keyword-find yourself,you find the
right person(caution illusions will always be there!).
*come on! its time starting fight your war....
*when you find it...you will surpised thousands of people around you...
..yet you love urself more...so you can give love...help people find
themself..
*never alone now...always you have yourself...


..if i am wrong do correct me...do write in your thoughts too..