god! i need strength..

" its 1 am in the morning...still in office..as the goals are getting clearer..and visions brightening..i understand the hurdles..god give me strength...i need to carry on"...

hahaha--how it feels when ur petrol runs dry at midnight

"Its 2 am...i was returning from office around 12.30 am petrol ran dry..hahahha...different feeling..no petrol..and even police caught me to check my license..its was interesting to push my bike in the middle of the night :)..i liked when i pushed it over a fly over and ..down the slope...:)..good experience..i had petrol bunk in 1 km and its was over...i wanted to write this down before i sleep..

Listening: Yanni-To Take..To hold [really wonderful to hear in the middle of night ]...

gonna sleep now..good night :) ..."

my friend :)

This fellow has been around with me for a longtime..quite different has sand in his bums as to sit erect hahahah!:)

Visions up! !!

..yeah ..my visions are up and batteries are charging...mind just got a bit working...

..after the conversation with Prof.Sankai and Prof.Suzuki...i might be modifying my proposal towards artifical limb -Brain to machine interface -instead of a wheelchair..that helps the people better than a wheelchair..

my dream is to start a lab working basically on brain to machine interface ->cyborgs,artifical limbs and modified HAL robots...i will start with a small move ..hopefully ..gods grace..

i hope i can start early i must thank my friends mannan and jhelum for their ideas..providing bit of push towards that...

..i am looking at CNC machines in the other end..i am looking at this ..in the immediate future..

..hopefully..hopefully..

:(

..my mind was sparking..huge energy found...i was feeling very strong....

..just got a call my mom was unwell..my goodness everything just went off..just like switching off ur lights...everything became dark....i lost every bit of my strength..i had rush back home..my sister flew in...its quite difficult phase for me coming few weeks...

..within few days i had a big battle on hand...i had to leave home and reach my place in bangalore for tht...my eyes were filled ..as a lone warrior held his sword ...with a heart of heaviness..i just felt nothing...in a such a state of pain where nothing really affects...

..but i had to fight the battle..i just kept trying...just trying...for i knew that if i cld win the battle its for my ppl...

..so i keep going...trying...trying..under whatever situation..

The curse of being strong...

..its like holding a huge rock and unable to share the weight with anybody..possibly we dont want anybody to risk...and ..when a pain comes..others think ..its fine he can handle it...sometimes its very hard...when ur heart bleeds..strength dips..mind slows down...there is no other go than to hold on..and fight it out...
..there is the real spring of energy when the last breathe to hold on is taken in...i dont know from where it comes from...quite phenomenal ..as the rock is thrown away..and we have a mountain of rocks to clear the path for ourself and for others....

..burn urself as much as u can for others...and for a work from which u dont except anything...something beyond materialistic world and something far more superior energy will be part of u...

Strength to see life in the claws of death..

..life is all about pushing oneself towards their dreams and goals to the limit...and with every limit the risk of death increases...and with every victory one sees more of life in it than death...

..dream as much as you can..acheive those dreams dont let it fade away for they are precious..it needs hardwork...and the success,victory and quest to workhard itself will become a need for you like air that you breathe..it generates huge amount of energy that keeps one going and going..

..for a single manifestation of the flow will be elixir of life..where one starts to strive to quench the elixir of life again and again...goes on...

Hip hop!!!

Something i cant do in my life..dance!!! :)..watch this...oh my god..the girl in the white shirt dances beautiful!!!..what a flow in her movements..of course the guy in hat..but the girl had real quality and attitude

Applications of chinese kunfu to real life-switch on speakers!

...What it feels to decline something u wanted all your life...

Its been sometime since i have spoken..and ofcourse i am making the blog open..i am thinking of sharing some information...

I was invited to japan by university of tsukuba...more than anything Prof.Sankai had personally signed my invite...its such a honour for me...from my child hood i have worked all alone..questioning and reasoning so many things..i had taken sucha great risk in choosing brain to machine interface as master thesis..thing is nobody was there to guide me..i had to work so hard..to learn electronics and science..to implement certain things...

..and i am just a ordinary dust particle before everybody to recognize my work and invite me..i feel so honored...thank you god for giving me sucha a life filled with love,respect,knowledge and honor...

..there were two interviews..one for research assistantship(RA) and another for PHD...i cldnt get thru RA for i didnt have experience ..but got my PHD admit in the university of tsukuba...and i didnt get in cybernics dept...one of the reason for not taking my PHD...

..mind u this is my dream!!!! imagine doing PHD in japan wow!...in robotics :)!..

..money is quite important in life..i didnt get a scholarship i really cldnt take a risk as i took in my masters where three years was so difficult so was it after i came out..still i have not recovered...

..doing my PHD in a similar way ..living is so costly in japan i really cant afford such a thing..i cant even a year...actually it was right forward for me..if i dont get scholarship i am not going..i didnt know if i cld get if i go there...

only now..thinking..instead of sitting at 10.30 pm at office on a holiday writing a c code.. makes me think..shld have i taken???...

..thats painfull...really painful.....i cldnt afford straight forward...god!i touched it..god! i touched it...still i cldnt hold on...

i remember when i was the captain of my football in college..in the semifinals..i missed a shot just over the cross bar..game went into penalty and we lost...

..i remember those painful moments...so as losing people...so thats how it is..what it feels to decline something you wanted all your life...

..in search of my destiny

Longtime ahh! :)...its really a dream come true for me as i was invited to Japan to present my project proposal and possibly my Phd ..six more hours i am off from bangalore...i never thought i would leave chennai a year ago..here i am very next year for Japan for another battle..

..bottomline i want to do something for my society with my ideas..i hope and wish that i can..

see you then...bye..
veerabahu

Beautiful music!

Aristotle -on desires & Einstein on equations

"Bring your desires down to your present means. Increase them only when your increased means permit."- Aristotle

"Equations are more important to me, because politics is for the present, but an equation is something for eternity."-Einstein

Shoalin Vs Taekwondo

My schooling..memory as a 4 years old..srikanth..

..Another sat'day in the office working ..was listening to MLTR-Breaking my heart..i remembered my friend srikanth..i played this song for him...

Thought that i wld record my school days!..the following posts will be on that..


I remember ..when i was 4 year old..a wall separated two classes..i was sitting near the wall..they was hole in the wall..i was just playing with some sticks into it and paper..then..another person from the other side also did the same..after some days..i saw the same kid near me..it was my friend srikanth :)..

..we experienced few things from my childhood..he suffered so mucha torture from his aunty..his parents split up ..his mom wld always say that she will come and take him..till now she havent turned up..his father comes in 5 years to see..i dont know now thats the status...

..in our schooling he always used to run away from his home..he had a very troubled life..

Last time i meet him was when i was doing my Masters..he came to college ..we had food..he used to call sometime..but now i am completely out of touch..wish i cld talk and meet him someday..amazing thing is when we talk we still the same way!..as we long back..time really bring distance into us..

..shark!

www.SharkBreak.com

..an illusion..

..i have got a job and i remember when i was 23 in an interviewed i said that a salary of 20k will be sufficient so i have kinda reached it ..a sense of false cushion has come in this year..i had to quickly realise that this is just a illusion and my goals are greater and i have to go ahead to acheive more.. u know..i have push further..

see you then:)
veerabahu

..Interesting article..reminded me of my childhood days..

:) all smiles you know..i was readin through a blog with all supermans and super girl concept..and blog is names adventures of onion head!..haha..

I just reminded me of my childhood days..there was so many restrictions but it was so mucha fun..somethin that amuses me as a kid we used to enjoy so much..some qualities we tend to lose it with time i dont know which one makes us kid..

..but for few minutes i felt the same..dreamin to be superman..or dreamin to spiderman kinda..i remember wearing a spring shoe :)..hahah..saw that in rajini movie i guess and we used to dream that we cld jump first and second floors..hahah..

yeah now writing this ..i realise that logics and confinin ourselves to reality we lose certain part of childhood kinda dreamin..

coming again to my dreams!..stree hawk!!that time na..we had a big cycle stand in our school and they used to give promotional products..we always wanted a STREET HAWK promotional to be given to us :)..haha..wondered how that cycle stand wld be replaced by complete street hawks..hahah :)..

good feeling..writing this :)..

see you..i have also started to use ..take care word sometimes..

take care,
veerabahu

.pain of missing home..

..weird that i dont miss my home when i am away in bangalore..when i reach home my home and surrounds me and grips..its quite a feeling i must say..and more than that i have greater reason to live here than any other place..i feel my home and place..its been the place that has taught me so many things..has been through my toughest times..
..i am here..in home..sometimes i dont like to come home..just because its so hard to leave home..

My expense chart!-my shareholders beware!!

All my share holders!this is my expense sheet(monthly) for the financial year 07-08 :)..learning to manage money :)..few notable points are..

1)Lead a simple life(yeah a 10th hand used ferrari is more than enough!! )

2)Save..save..save..save..( a dog chasing you makes u win 100 m dash!!!- tax is the dog)

3)charity(god at least in one i am useful!! )

NOTE TO MY SHAREHOLDERS:KINDLY KEEP INVESTING IN ME UR LOVE AND AFFECTION I HAVE LOT TO DO!

thanks,
veerabahu